How though?

I asked for it
Or did I just know
That it was coming
Like the calm before
The storm
But you never knew
The storm was coming
It wasnt in the forecast
But I knew something was off
Missing
Never a feeling of uncertainty
Or like im missing out
But a whole that
Has never been noticed
Not by one
But a stanger
How is this possible
This life
This thing
Feeling toutured
In my own skin
More like and outter body
Experince that I never
Experinced
Watching my self play a role
That my flesh is not staring in
My soul took over the show
I am but a host for what the soul
Wants Needs and Craves for
How is this possible...