true ish

My heart is heavy and im trying to find a place too lay .. so many emotions I don know how to convae ...my mind is on a road of distruction...I continue to live in the world of what ifs and maybes...although I've gotten better at at loving me...sometime I feel like I wanna give my love too thee so much to spread ...but there is a large voice in my head reminding me...of what can't be...why I shouldn't and what's really good for Me...and that's me...so as my heart gains weight and my mind trys too vacate..ill will just wait until what's for me shows its face...with nothing too be misconstrued...or misplaced...until it shows up with much dissimilararity and plenty of grace...ill wait...because I know that I deserve purity and true bliss..honesty and a lingering kiss...to be loved with out a what if or maybes...

AAM

In my mind
Im confused
Or maybe
Im not
Something in me
Is beyond
Ready to
Jus be
Tired of
Caring
In a
Not so
Caring way
Toward me
Your right
Maybe it took
You to be full
For me to see
How insecure
I can be
But I cant
Be no more
So im offically
Closing that door
Because im ready too

feeling myself

In a place where
I feel secure about me
Know that I am more then
Just a person
Im a goddess of life
Im gonna be someones wife
Ive found no reason to have
So many insecurities
For I am me
Plain and simply
And Im ok with that fact
In a matter of not
Caring but
Still loving hard
No disregard
But on so me ish
I hope you see this...

all smiles

My eyes
Not at all
Surprised by
What they fall
Upon
You can only
Get lemonade from
Lemons so I say
Why try another way
Way beyond
My boundaries
But what are
They really
Trying to
Understand
This disguised
Bliss that I
Claim to feel
No need too
Feel uneasy cause
I know whats real
Been here before
Not for any type of
Monopoly
Or
Chutes and Ladders
I don wanna hear
Chitter or
Chatter
I dont care to
Know who what
When and where
Cause either
Way truth is an issue
Cause I wasnt there
Actions speak
Beyond what any word
Can spew
Although I could
Think of a few
That may be unkind
Ill smile and keep
Them too self
And let them fester
In my mind cause oh
My when its time...
We will see
Whats what
And where to
Rewind...