true ish

My heart is heavy and im trying to find a place too lay .. so many emotions I don know how to convae ...my mind is on a road of distruction...I continue to live in the world of what ifs and maybes...although I've gotten better at at loving me...sometime I feel like I wanna give my love too thee so much to spread ...but there is a large voice in my head reminding me...of what can't be...why I shouldn't and what's really good for Me...and that's me...so as my heart gains weight and my mind trys too vacate..ill will just wait until what's for me shows its face...with nothing too be misconstrued...or misplaced...until it shows up with much dissimilararity and plenty of grace...ill wait...because I know that I deserve purity and true bliss..honesty and a lingering kiss...to be loved with out a what if or maybes...