.....

They keep asking what's wrong
I look at them like what's right
Can't seem too shake this feeling
Of being misused
Mentally abused
I feel like it just me
But there has to b more
To this story
it's a piece of a puzzle that
Just won't fit
And every day I just wanna quit
I'm lonely inside
But there is a room full of people
None seem to b my equal
Everyone seems so see through

Fuck

Why do I feel like this
I'm in love with someone
That is willing to call me her
Mrs.
But I feel in distress
How do u fall out ta love with someone
So easily
Still confused on why
She did that too me
I sometimes feel I'm not
Deserving of u
because of what she put me through
Its not fair u know
When u know which way u wanna go
And then
The detour sign shows up
out of no where and
U still don't know which way to go
So many I'll feelings running through
My soul
I Dont know whats real anymore
Dont know how to really feel anymore
Out ta control

My thoughts

In the back of my mind
There something oh so
Fine
But not good for me
Why can't I let go of the
Emotions that stem from
Thee
See emotionally
I'm a wreck
Trying to connect
The dots of reality
But see the unfortunate
Seems too be very
Fortune from my view

Pure ignorance
Seeps from you
Which makes u blind from
What's really true
I thought I was rid of u
But u creep 
dip into my heart
And stalk my thoughts
What is a girl to do
When a large part of me
Is still tainted
By a love that wasn't
So real
For all the time
I waited
I feel like I still am...
But u some how still have a hold on me
Its hard for me to defend...

In need

Annoyed by ignorance
And pure inconsideration
My heart bleeds for a new
Scent of life

Knowing that it may reek
Of unconsciousness
And unblatant fear
I still yearn too be close
To something less familiar

lessons

Im not gonna say
Because you hurt me
I hate you
I appreciate the lessons
That were learned
From  the experince us

That lesson of
Trust...
Like a gust a wind
It can be taking
With no caution

That lesson of
Love...
Like dust
Can be swept away
With no waring

That lesson of
Bliss
Like a kiss
Can be stolen
With no permission

Im not gonna say I hate
You because you left me
But Ill thank you

Really

Are they words of true purity....
that are spoken...
cause over ur words im tripping...
then choking while trying to repeat...
what has been shared threw verbalization ...
something about ur words give me an erie sensation of satisfaction...
and security ...
it's like they were only ment for me...
so i listen tentatively ...
.with much intensity ....
why u slowly expose me knowing unknowingly ..
. showing me...
what's really ment too b....
what is truly free...

I learn too appreciate 

what has being done

trying to avoid

the past...

Negativity...

by thinking 

of all the possibilities...

Of u and me...

me

So many things
I wanna say
I cant possibly
Display all the feelings
That I have
For whom is me
Ive slowly begin
To gain a sense of
Who I should be
 Maybe
 Most of the time
I live senselessly
Looking for
Sensitivity
And
Aproval
From the ones that mean
Nothing to me