about to change the game

In a place where
I know that I am
Truly alone
And I am good with that
I am realizing
Things change
As you get older
Time goes by faster
Disasters come and go
Nothing last forever
Love is different now
Life is not as black and white
I feel I have options
I dont settle for the bs
I feel at this time
I dont really have to say yes
Living everyday seems
To be a leaning process
That I dont protest
Something big is about to happen
Because im gonna make it

Realizing i dont need nobody
Forreal
I could do this shit on my own
But it would be nice to share
A place called home
Wit someone you love
But what you want is not always
What you need
I cant make
One want the things
I feel I need
So one step at
A time I will focus
On me
Cause clearly
Im no ones
I belong to me

what happen

You use to tell me everything
You deepest darkest secrets
Now it seems that I have lost
Your sequence
I wanna be you friend and I
Feel like Im loosing that part
Of you
I need you to understand
Your more then just my boo
I worry about
You day in and day out
I know its not easy
Maybe more I
Should ask you what you feeling
About
Everything
I know its had to be you
But its hard being me tooo
Just as you
I have people thats trying
To see what
I bee like
And its not
Just sexual
But my mind is stuck
On you and Im just trying
To get through
I wanna touch you
With my thoughts
I want you to come
To me when it
Hurts to the point
That you cant
Breath
I wanna be
Your everything
Maybe its too much
Maybe what I want is too deep for
Whom is of you
I want something untouchable
Pure and true
At one point of
Our love I thought you
Wanted that tooo

want

You ask
I tell
I wait
I wait
I wait
I wait
You ask
I wait
I wait

Nothing means
What is actually said
Nothing From nothing
Means Nothing
Something
I over it
Tired
Drained
What happened to
Consistency
I guess it found
A new friend indeed
I just wanna friend
Who don wanna
Fuck me
Someone who
Will really listen
To me
ME
The real me
Im always listening
And understanding
Selflessly
Can anyone do the same for me
I wait
I wait
I wait
Then start to think
,Maybe this life anit
For me
Nothing is a clear to me
I just wanna be
Regular me
With out all the bells and whistles
And so much expectancy
With out watching what I say
I just wanna be free
From the underline bullshit
An antics
Im tired of feeling frantic
Walking on eggshells
Feeling unsure
I want stability

butterflies

So even if I wanted to I cant

Smells make me want

Things I cant have

The way the music

Pulsates through

Im being pierced

But I like it

Oh shit

No I dont

I cant

Or can I 

Belonging 

Is something that 

I dont so what diffrence

Does it make

Shivers from

Brushing up against

Don get to close

Cool air on my skin

Pillows dancing down

My body 

What wait 

Dont

Stop

Stimulation

I feel needed

I feel wanted

Haven felt 

This way in a while

This whole I have

Seems to have no 

Place 

I dream in the day time

But reality is

Here