In my mind

This is something
Something that I feel
Like is only a dream
Something I feel
Like will be short lived
But why
Why do I feel
Like nothing is enough
I feel slightly
Rushed
Not big on trust
Somethings are a must
But I much rather
Or do I
Do I really
Rather
Or is it that
I actually fathom
All outcomes
How come I
Cant see it
I feel it I want
To believe it
But it seems so far
Out of my reach
I reach and reach
I seem to sometimes
Get a grip
But then it slips
Then I dip
More like fall
Back to my safe place
Put on my game face
And in the depths of me
I continue to pace